Girls,
If you're in a relationship that has to be kept a secret, maybe, JUST MAYBE,it really isn't meant to be?
If the guy you're with is a prick (extremist, racist, aggressive, anti-THE WORLD, controlling, and fghts with you a lot) and seems to be doing nothing but bring misery to your life, maybe, JUST MAYBE, he's not good for you?
When said guy, is close by, but tells you he never got the chance to swing by and say "hey", "yo", "Sup?" after not seeing you for AGES, maybe, JUST MAYBE, he doesn't care enough? if at all?
When you have continuous fights with your best friend, and your best friend repeatedly says that he degrades and insults her, then lies to you about it while he tells you excuses, maybe, JUST MAYBE, no wild thinking here, he really IS lying?
When you break up with someone, and he keeps taking all the chances your giving him, to make you go through some sick deep shit over and over and over again, maybe, JUST MAYBE, he need to fucking get out of his environment so he can stop bringing you the fuck down all the fucking time?
When things your friends tell you go from "It's gonna be okay", "have hope", "you'll make it through", "you deserve more", "Let me the fuck at him" and "Okay now you know, so learn from it", to "fucking STOP IT already", "why the fuck are you doing this to yourself", "I'd slap you if i could, I swear", "Suck IT UP", maybe, JUST MAYBE, it's been too long for you to keep going in circles and back from more?
You're fucking young and gorgeous. You're given opportunities that will not be coming back in 10 years time. You're so smart yet you bring yourselves over and over again to the same dead ends. Stop wishing for things out of reach. Geez, you can chase your fucking dreams but you have to work with what you fucking have first and make fucking USE of it instead of trying to jump straight into it, failing, then declaring your life over. Nothing is going to happen with the snap of a finger. He's not your knight in shining armor if he's a jackass with a psychological disorder, he wont make you feel good, he won't make you smile, he won't come and kidnap you from a life you don't want (yeah, it DOESN'T SUCK, you JUST DON'T WANT IT), and did you really think he would treat you like this if he really did love you?
Just because you fell, does not mean you can't get up again. It only means that when you DON'T want to get up again, when you don't love yourself and don't accept that you deserve better, that you need someone that will make you happy not give you words that strike your guts like pieces of broken glass. You would get that for a guy to love you is to be nervous when meeting your best friends 'cause he knows that if he can't get along with them, a longterm shot is out the window. You need to accept what is and live your life starting from scratches and building a GOOD life for you. He's NOT your salvation if he can't give a proper shit about you!
FUCK, what is WRONG with you? You're SAFE. You have SHELTER, you're not a victim of poverty or something. you haven't been raped, beaten or abused! you simply looked for salvation, when in fact you needed nothing of the sort, in a place where you knew had no hope, and are still clinging on to it because you "can't imagine a world without him".
You cry everyday, you snap at everyone, you skip uni, you skip work because you can't face the day after that dramatic break up....10 months ago.
STOP GOING BACK, then see how that turns out.
YOU CONVINCED yourself there's no WAY OUT.
Guess what? THERE IS NOT WAY OUT
UNLESS YOU FUCKING GROW THE FUCK UP.
We get shit, we fall, mourn about the tragedy, get up, suck it up, deal with it and get on with life.
Sorry if you got confused, I talked about two different people with two different cases up there.
Type-form rant, over.
